COEUR D'ALENE, IDAHO. - The wife of former Coeur d'Alene High School Principal Troy Schueller is opening up about a tragedy that shocked the community and changed her family forever.
Saprina Schueller said she's sharing her husband's story and the events leading up to his death in hopes it will save other lives.
"I still wake up every single morning and I can't believe that this has happened and I can't believe Troy did it," Schueller said. She remembers the last moment she shared with her husband. It was around 5 a.m. on March 21, 2018. Troy, who was usually in a rush to get to work, held on a little longer as he kissed her goodbye.
"Later on you look back and realize he was saying goodbye and you didn't know it at the time," Schueller said.
Troy took his own life later that day leaving behind his wife, son and daughter.
"We had a life that we really loved, and we all want that life back."
In his death, Schueller searched for answers and began researching CTE, a brain disease caused by concussions. "I have no doubt that this all started with this bus crash," she said.
Troy was heading to a wrestling tournament in 2001 when the driver suffered a heart attack. Troy ran to the front of the bus to take control when it hit a tree.
"He had a whole month that he didn't remember at all," Schueller said.
Over the next 15 years, there were two more concussions. Troy's mood changed, and the headaches grew worse.
"In his final note, that was one of the comments he made, was that he had a headache that just never went away," Schueller said.
She has no doubt that the bus crash slowly killed her husband. She wasn't thinking about CTE at the time of his death and since Troy was cremated, there's no way of proving he had the disease.
"He just wasn't willing to take the time to take care of himself because he had too many other people to take care of," Schueller said.
Troy's story is personal. It's not an easy one to tell -- but Schueller said it needs to be.
"I think we need to remove the stigma behind asking for help, not feeling like you're weak," she said. "If we don't talk about these things and stay silent, nothing ever changes."
Schueller created a website called troy's story -- it launched over the weekend and has been visited more than 68,000 times. It shares even more details surrounding Troy's struggles, including opioids. For more information, click here.
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She started writing about her husband's suicide in August and recently created a website called 'Troy's Story,'
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