But he does want one thing: a chance to meet with Pistorius and forgive him.

"That way, I can find more peace with the situation," he said, fighting back tears.

Steenkamp says it's his Christian faith that prompts him to want to offer forgiveness. And he wants to do it face to face, not through the media.

"Whatever the outcome, I feel with my belief (that) if Christ could forgive me when he died on the cross, why can't I?"